Friendship stuff (2)

I could blabber on and on about how many things are not going smoothly for me in life and how crappy and suckish I think my life is. But still, I appreciate all the good memories and happiest moments and those who listen whole heartedly to my rants and those who just brighten up my life with their small actions. Im thankful for that. But I just can't put it aside about matters that are forever so disappointing.  Which is why I am blogging at this hour when I have a long day at school tomorrow. 

If you still don't know, I think a lot to myself and sometimes overthink about some matters. And I feel better that if I dont tell someone, I at least am typing it out because keeping everything inside of me just drives me insane. But what's life? Forever full of ups and downs, 充满了喜怒哀乐。如果发生的事我根本什么都不能做, 超出我的能力范围,我还能怎样? 我只能说我感到很无奈, 我也无能为力。So why not I just blog all that shit I feel and vent it out? 

Friendship stuff...

It really hurts to see someone whom I trusted and treasured to turn her back on me. It really made me think twice. What on earth has happened between us. It's not as though we've been through a lot, but we've had our ups and downs. I just feel so betrayed that I am blamed for something that I feel is not even my fault. How other people act and treat you is not within my control. It's just super disappointing. Maybe our friendship is just worth that much to you. I have never expected that you would treat me like that over such an issue. I have no words to describe this other than saying how ironic it is that this happened between us. I don't know if this is a misunderstanding or what bit you don't even seem to want to get things clear or make an effort to maintain our friendship. Don't think you will read my blog even but how I feel now, is just beyond sadness. And I hate it.

UPDATE:)

ZOMG MY LAST POST WAS LIKE APRIL 0_0

HELLO. Juat abit of an update hehe. Not much have been going on I guess. But Im like really eggcited for TKDB'15 with my somewhat new team heheh. So quickly it's been a year from the first time we went on TKDB ohmygoshh. BLACK ILLUSION♥ 
Super love my Blackies and buttfars muackss :*
So we made it to the Finals last year. I really hope that we can do better for this year's!! Made like friends from AES and this year they have new members joining too heh. Super short post cuz I'm super tired but yeah. JIAYOU TO US [ no group name yet haha]

-- SIGNING OFF w LOTSA LURVEE--
JIAQII♡