Sorting Things Out.

So. Somehow, my blog is turning into a site where I pour everything out that I feel no one would listen to wholeheartedly. My emotions have been on a crazy roller coaster ride 🎢🎢 ever since 2015 and now, today, I'm finally making up my mind and picking up the courage to actually sort out my feelings and emotions, as well as letting go of stuff.

For people who actually see my snapchats, yeah. I spam loads and loads of captions that are super tiny which most people would just ignore. You might find me attention seeking doing that. But I only post those snaps because I felt that I had no one that could listen to me. I have had countless emotional breakdowns whenever I'm alone, bawling my eyes out till I fall asleep. Perhaps I'm not as strong emotionally. When I'm alone emoing/crying, I think about a lot a lot of stuff. Many random things just pop up in my head and I figured out I should give my heart a break and like let go of things that make me feel all sad and crappy about. Guess I would be better off that way😃

Everything happens for a reason and for me, its probably to build a stronger self and a more positive me. Through all my self reflecting moments, late night and alone time thoughts, I've come to see and appreciate more things that people do for me, feeling extremely thankful to those who made me feel more than I'm worth, those that tried to cheer me up and keep me going and sorry for being that ungrateful bitch, only considering how sad and hurt I felt. Thinking about it, letting go of things, I wouldn't lose anything. I still have my family, friends (Not many but worthy)and myself. 又不是世界末日嘛 horhh. Everyday so gloomy for what?? Anyways,
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" --Kelly Clarkson💪💪💪
Haha. Quotes.

Everyone has their different secondary school story. Mine just happened to be like that. But still, I had my happy times, especially CCA which some people hate. It was a ginormous puzzle piece of my secondary school life. Yes I love my CCA💖. A lot. Not only it gave me all the best memories but also distracted me from some of the negativity in reality and pushed me on, not to mention the fact that it's one of the few things that I can smile so truly for↡↡ 

Sadly, I just had my farewell party on Monday and this Thursday will officially be my last day of CCA. hais. So many ups and downs man. I'm quite a nostalgic person💁💁What ever it is, it's gonna be a new start for me. All I want now is to focus on my studies and be happy. I mean, I already have plans laid out for post- secsch. So yeah. No time for more negativity. I have a lot more shit waiting for me to worry about in future like my GPA HAHA. It's gonna be a new start for me. Changed my blog skin too hahahaha

And I'm all good👍👍

Thanks if you bothered reading this blogpost by the way💕💕💕