Summary: 2015

It's been quite awhile since I last blogged, so here's an impromptu blogpost :)

2015 is coming to an end really really soon and this year has been quite overwhelming for me I guess. New classmates, stepping up as a CCA chairperson and all, having much more commitments to fulfil. Nevertheless, I have enjoyed my year so far, despite the not-so-happy moments.

Being in Sec 3... New classmates and environment. I am actually really afraid of judgements because of some past experience when I was not well accepted because of my attitude. I usually find it hard to make friends that I can really open up to and fully trust. Trust issues I guess. And that's why I hold my best friends dearly, although I might not show it. And by the wayyyyyy. If you read my previous posts on my friendship issues, I have made up with my friend months ago:) Sooo. Back to talking bout getting used to the new environment, I was expecting to be an outcast and all, cause I'm not good at socialising and i have a resting bitch face too haha. I guess having my bestfriend in the same class helps, but omg, when we had that cold war for almost a month, I almost died. ANYWAYSS. I was kind of an outcast, kinda not I guess. Or maybe I just wasn't close to certain people. I found it hard to trust certain people because I am really uncertain whether they are sincere friends or just "being nice". But well, it's been a year and I guess I have gotten used to it(?)

As for CCA, it wasn't as easy as it seemed to me to manage the dancers because I used to not like/ be afraid to speak in front of a crowd. Why? Scared of judgements. But when I was just appointed to being the chairperson of Modern dance, it felt like all of a sudden, there were weights on my shoulders, so pressurising. But after awhile I kind of got used to our routine, and it doesn't pressure me as much anymore. Say it's easy, it's not. And it's not too difficult either, having my two vice-chairpersons and teachers to render me help. It has definitely been a super good experience for me for the past year, something not everyone will go through and I deeply appreciate the chance given to me.

Through CCA, I have forged so many unforgettable memories with my beloved dancers. Although we did not participate SYF this year, we had our Youth Celebrate performance which was a rather big one too. At first when we were told the news and started training in 2014, I was giving attitude like a spoiled brat, because I really wanted to go for SYF instead. However I slowly accepted it, and saw that it was actually quite fun too hehe. Then we had S24, which the CCA participated in for the very first time. The results weren't impressive, we did not get through the preliminary round. But looking at the other teams, I can actually understand why. They were really good and it inspires me to do better.

Other that the inter-school stuff, Instructor sent Black Illusion out for TKDB once again. I was super thrilled as I really enjoyed myself at TKDB with my team mates last year. This year, with Britney,Minhui, Ruijun and our new members Azalea, Xuetong and Yeqi. Another unforgettable one, doing even better than last year. Honestly, I was really sad that we didn't proceed straight to the semi-finals. But ANYWAY. I'm super happy and proud of the team for getting 2nd-runnerup for both semi-finals and finals ERMAGAWD. We were so close last year, and got placed this year like yayyerzzz<3 p="">
Okay so to end off, 2015 has been quite a smooth one for me, just a few downs. I appreciate and treasure every memory forged and hope for a better year in 2016 although I think it is really just STUDYSTUDYSTUDY cause prelims and O'lvls. Let's just enjoy the last of 2015 and welcome 2016 with a smile:)

Click to watch:

Black Illusion TKDB'15 Finals
Spades TKDB'15 Finals
Unique Elements TKDB'15 Finals

Friendship stuff (2)

I could blabber on and on about how many things are not going smoothly for me in life and how crappy and suckish I think my life is. But still, I appreciate all the good memories and happiest moments and those who listen whole heartedly to my rants and those who just brighten up my life with their small actions. Im thankful for that. But I just can't put it aside about matters that are forever so disappointing.  Which is why I am blogging at this hour when I have a long day at school tomorrow. 

If you still don't know, I think a lot to myself and sometimes overthink about some matters. And I feel better that if I dont tell someone, I at least am typing it out because keeping everything inside of me just drives me insane. But what's life? Forever full of ups and downs, 充满了喜怒哀乐。如果发生的事我根本什么都不能做, 超出我的能力范围,我还能怎样? 我只能说我感到很无奈, 我也无能为力。So why not I just blog all that shit I feel and vent it out? 

Friendship stuff...

It really hurts to see someone whom I trusted and treasured to turn her back on me. It really made me think twice. What on earth has happened between us. It's not as though we've been through a lot, but we've had our ups and downs. I just feel so betrayed that I am blamed for something that I feel is not even my fault. How other people act and treat you is not within my control. It's just super disappointing. Maybe our friendship is just worth that much to you. I have never expected that you would treat me like that over such an issue. I have no words to describe this other than saying how ironic it is that this happened between us. I don't know if this is a misunderstanding or what bit you don't even seem to want to get things clear or make an effort to maintain our friendship. Don't think you will read my blog even but how I feel now, is just beyond sadness. And I hate it.

UPDATE:)

ZOMG MY LAST POST WAS LIKE APRIL 0_0

HELLO. Juat abit of an update hehe. Not much have been going on I guess. But Im like really eggcited for TKDB'15 with my somewhat new team heheh. So quickly it's been a year from the first time we went on TKDB ohmygoshh. BLACK ILLUSION♥ 
Super love my Blackies and buttfars muackss :*
So we made it to the Finals last year. I really hope that we can do better for this year's!! Made like friends from AES and this year they have new members joining too heh. Super short post cuz I'm super tired but yeah. JIAYOU TO US [ no group name yet haha]

-- SIGNING OFF w LOTSA LURVEE--
JIAQII♡

Random Update

Hellooo

So, as you can see, I haven't been updating my blog for 2-3 months thanks to my laziness, so it's been pretty empty. So yeah. I thought I should just update a little. 

Bzzbzz.

Hmm let's talk about school? This year. Hmm. Actually right I'm quite okay with my class but some people just gotta make life hard and you know, either dislike me or what not when I really just did not say anything but well, it's okay lol. I guess I'm used to it already(?) Haha. So let them be.

The Morning is Good uh!

OBS YAY. Haha gonna talk about obs. It's erm. Fun. Definitely unforgettable. I mean who will forget about the time when people have to dig a hole when they go take a dump in the toilet right. Hahaha. It's a very rare experience for me and I met alot nice people there heh. #teamMagellan blehh. I came back with my cousins saying I look like bangala cuz I was so badly sun burnt when I was originally very tanned already. Cuz of kayaking okayy. It's a really cool camp okay. Must go if you have the chance to!! The obs peoole are all very nice and the activities are great and all. Hahaha. Okay la. This is just a little update like I said so idw to Type like a whole chunk about my 5 days at Outward Bound Singapore. 

To end off,

This year has been going pretty smoothly I guess. Just have to study harder ahah. Thanks for reading!!

Monthly Post: December

December 十二月

YayyDecember. Finally the year of 2014 coming to an end. Time passed really quick. I only started the streaming year and now voom the year is ending. Well. So here is the blogpost for the month of December.
DISCLAIMER: I actually typed this post in December.

CDAC Performance. 

Soo. Miss Sharon Tan actually found this opportunity for the Black Illusion to perform at the Ready For School event organised by CDAC so 5 of us went, Ruijun Britney Minhui Khalisha and me. We did our TKDB Finals piece but with a different formation and after the performance we just went to our volunteering station which is this Wishing Sphere station. There are these read and white inflatable spheres for the people to write there wishes on. I think the spheres will be put afloat on the Singapore River(?)  Yeah that's pretty much it.

A group photo yayy:)

A wefie and idk where is RuiJunXP

IZ DA EYEBROW GAME STRONG ENUFFF?

Im serious about taking this selfie with my seriously serious face on the seriously serious selfie and I want you to be as serious as how I am seriously serious about taking this seriously serious selfie.

ITS US AGAIN LOL

So that is where my dearest RuiJun went.

Picnic with Qian and Ryann.

We went to the Botanic Gardens for our picnic  just a simple get together.  Supposedly there were more dancers like Zi Xuan Shannon Jingyi Ruijun. Ruijun could not make it and I think the others overslept so it was just the three of us haha.We just sat by the waters, ate and slacked. There were like geese in the waters. One was scratching itself like a mad dog. But okay it's a goose. Not a dog but haha yeah. The weather got super hot so we left for my house to slack for a bit before going to Marsiling CC for a ktv session. I swear Ryann's voice is crazy sharp. So sharp that the sharpener committed suicide.  Hahaha. Then Qian also join in the siao-ness. Poor me hahaha. After that we just went separate ways. DENG CHU~~

yeap. Spam on the train.

Ryann

and Ryann

AND RYANN

Glam Qian

CCA Bazaar and Christmas celebration. 

Okay. Now the CCA. The Black Illusion performed again, representing Modern Dance for the CCA Bazaar. I didn't really know what happened as I wasn't at the booth most of the time but what I dk know is that I lost a button on my MD jacket lolzies. Then the xmas celebration hahaa. Instructor Miss Loh got us super yumyum cheese cups from jarapetit yay. Then we played like running man modified version. Brisk walking man Haha. Then gift exchange with md. Got the present from Melissa. She got my present last year. That coincidence omg. So meli got me a cute mug lol. We had a gift exchange among the Black Illusion. And I got green tea choco from Guocun. What other drink is my favourite?  GREEN TEA OF COURSE♥ HAHA. That day ended with me going to work. By the way, I worked on Christmas Eve and after we closed we stayed at the out let for a count down hehe. Talking about countdown, we also counted down to new year 2015 at kfc and my manager got us cakes and mini cupcakes. So yums hehe it was nice to spend the new year with the new friends I met hehe. I have nothing else to say sooo...

Jarapetite cheesecup Miss Loh got for us. yumms.

I hope everyone enjoyed their year of 2014, all the happiness and sadness, all the ups and downs, all the 酸甜苦辣。Keep all the best memories and put the bad ones aside. Put a smile on your face and as well as others. Thank you so much for reading, may everyone be blessed in 2015♥ ✌✌

Monthly Post: November

November 十一月

Sooo... November. Went for cca, SG50 dance thingy, got a job, and attended the TLC Camp.

Dance

Went for CCA and did this indian dance for sg50 in school and also the mass dance thingy with other schools for the performan at the national stadium... just a summary.

Kfc

As some people might know, I got a job at KFC Ang Mo Kio so working there was fine, my collegues and Managers were nice people so pretty enjoyable and I also learnt to control my temper when customers piss me off so great experience but since school reopened I already submitted my resignation form 'cause I probably can't cope.  

TLC Camp

Tlc camp was fun.  And emotional.  VERY emotional. Cried like an idiot at camp lol. Really great camp to boost my self esteem/ confidence and also let me be a better leader myself. Met new people and git along with new people.  Well at least I feel that I did. Idk what others think but I think I made friends? Yeah. The camp was pretty emotional when the 3rd day came. We had to recognize people for their positive acts and then point out people that we think are lacking behind. Hearing it was hard enough but saying it, trying to sound nice was like whaa. Idk why but I just suddenly was on the verge of tears haha. Then the most memorable part of TLC to me was the "Human Ladder" game. Basically, group members have to pair up and hold wooden poles on two ends and carry one member from one chair to another which was about a quarter o the hall breadth. You will have to stand on the chair and say "I am ------ and I am a great leader" before you start climbing. For my group everyone of us were made to step down from the chair as the facils said that we are not ready or they said we weren't great leaders and then say super discouraging words, making us feel bad. That really made me cry like some cow. Then everytime I see my other team mates start crying,  I cry again. So craycray. But memories la hahaha. 

Nothing else I have to say actually. So I'll just end here. Thank you for reading♥

Monthly Post: October

October 十月

I don't know why but October seemed to just flew past super quickly, but here's the Monthly post for October. 

In October, we had tkdb'14 Finals (aka last of Black Illusion TT.TT) then the concert in school on the last day of school. Then there was the Halloween performance at Woodlans Galaxy Cc and then my 14th birthday and lastly the collection of results along with the selection of subject combination. This month has been quite relaxing since the End of Year examinations have already been over... yabayabayaba let's tacobout my life in the month of October shall we?

Last day of school and Halloween performance.

Well we had a concert, but idk if it was called the technically normal day like last year, being the super blur sotong and don't know everything, but we had a performance done up for the school which was actually the dance for our Halloween performance which I will talk about later. But yeah. I screwed up big time. I don't know why but I always screw up on the school stage. Erm yeah and the sound system omg. We were on stage preparing and waiting for the music and we're standing there and heads down. The music never started and I felt like vomitting(?) But our performance got pulled back to be the last item for the concert. Okay then I screwed up but you know, whatever. Hahahaha it was fun though. We had like zombie makeup on haha. As for the Halloween performance at the Galaxy Cc, there is nothing much to be mentioned so MOVING ON.

Um okay it's already halfway through November so I can't really remember every single thing. (I think I have stm haha)

Okay now I'm gonna tacobout my birthday. 

Hmm. I can't really remember actually... currently it's already 02 January so yeah hehehe. One I can remember is on my actual birthday itself, I went to kfc for breakfast, a treat from Nicole's mom, then to AMK hub where they got me a birthday cake that Nicole chose. Its was tinkerbell haha. Then next we picked Vivian up at the train station and went to Nicole's castle. We went to swim and did stupid stuff in the pool hehe don't judge. Then went up to take a shower. Darius and Jia came, we cut the cake and played xbox, then accompanied Nicole for her braces appointment and went to Northpoint for dinner. Im kinda just telling you what is happening lol. After dinner we all wanted to go home and went seperate ways. Then on my way home, I got a phonecall from Nicole telling me to go SSC and Sherman the lazy asshole is willing to come so we went there to lepak in Daiso till Sherman got bored and brought us to an icecream café opp SSC called Mootime. I kinda like the atmosphere of the café, really relaxing and sells super nice icecream and waffles haha. Ate and slacked there. That was probably the last that I did on that day.

Collecting results and the choosing of my subject combination.

So I got my results,  not very ideal but still acceptable, 勉强还可以啦. So the subject combi I had in mind was Additional Mathematics with combined bio and Geography which I got into and am allocated to class 3-4. There's really nothing ihave to say about this though. Plus im kinda tired already so I'll end of this monthly post.

By the way the photos will be uploaded on another post as I am blogging with my phone now and the photos are in my computer. Having some troubles with the com and laptop recently so yeah. Will be posted another time. It's actually midnight of 2 January now so gotta sleep. Got school uh. Thanks for reading, bye😘😘💕