Summary: 2015

It's been quite awhile since I last blogged, so here's an impromptu blogpost :)

2015 is coming to an end really really soon and this year has been quite overwhelming for me I guess. New classmates, stepping up as a CCA chairperson and all, having much more commitments to fulfil. Nevertheless, I have enjoyed my year so far, despite the not-so-happy moments.

Being in Sec 3... New classmates and environment. I am actually really afraid of judgements because of some past experience when I was not well accepted because of my attitude. I usually find it hard to make friends that I can really open up to and fully trust. Trust issues I guess. And that's why I hold my best friends dearly, although I might not show it. And by the wayyyyyy. If you read my previous posts on my friendship issues, I have made up with my friend months ago:) Sooo. Back to talking bout getting used to the new environment, I was expecting to be an outcast and all, cause I'm not good at socialising and i have a resting bitch face too haha. I guess having my bestfriend in the same class helps, but omg, when we had that cold war for almost a month, I almost died. ANYWAYSS. I was kind of an outcast, kinda not I guess. Or maybe I just wasn't close to certain people. I found it hard to trust certain people because I am really uncertain whether they are sincere friends or just "being nice". But well, it's been a year and I guess I have gotten used to it(?)

As for CCA, it wasn't as easy as it seemed to me to manage the dancers because I used to not like/ be afraid to speak in front of a crowd. Why? Scared of judgements. But when I was just appointed to being the chairperson of Modern dance, it felt like all of a sudden, there were weights on my shoulders, so pressurising. But after awhile I kind of got used to our routine, and it doesn't pressure me as much anymore. Say it's easy, it's not. And it's not too difficult either, having my two vice-chairpersons and teachers to render me help. It has definitely been a super good experience for me for the past year, something not everyone will go through and I deeply appreciate the chance given to me.

Through CCA, I have forged so many unforgettable memories with my beloved dancers. Although we did not participate SYF this year, we had our Youth Celebrate performance which was a rather big one too. At first when we were told the news and started training in 2014, I was giving attitude like a spoiled brat, because I really wanted to go for SYF instead. However I slowly accepted it, and saw that it was actually quite fun too hehe. Then we had S24, which the CCA participated in for the very first time. The results weren't impressive, we did not get through the preliminary round. But looking at the other teams, I can actually understand why. They were really good and it inspires me to do better.

Other that the inter-school stuff, Instructor sent Black Illusion out for TKDB once again. I was super thrilled as I really enjoyed myself at TKDB with my team mates last year. This year, with Britney,Minhui, Ruijun and our new members Azalea, Xuetong and Yeqi. Another unforgettable one, doing even better than last year. Honestly, I was really sad that we didn't proceed straight to the semi-finals. But ANYWAY. I'm super happy and proud of the team for getting 2nd-runnerup for both semi-finals and finals ERMAGAWD. We were so close last year, and got placed this year like yayyerzzz<3 p="">
Okay so to end off, 2015 has been quite a smooth one for me, just a few downs. I appreciate and treasure every memory forged and hope for a better year in 2016 although I think it is really just STUDYSTUDYSTUDY cause prelims and O'lvls. Let's just enjoy the last of 2015 and welcome 2016 with a smile:)

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Black Illusion TKDB'15 Finals
Spades TKDB'15 Finals
Unique Elements TKDB'15 Finals