MOVING ON... studies
Problems. Partly because of my academic results which totally sucked. My Sem 3 results. URGHH. Super disappointing. I dropped alot. I want to study but idk. Im lazy to. But i want to. I get distracted. Like at home, i have my comfy bed and my wifi and all, outside, i just look around, listen to music and I end up using my phone. Its just. URGH. It's not like I dont want to but I really just can't help it.
MOVING ON... trapped
For some reason, I've been feeling damned insecure recently. I dont even know why. I just feel that way. Okay maybe I know PARTLY why I'm like that but that is a secret that only certain people know. Shh. Problems after problems pop up in my mind. What if this what if that. It feels like my mind's gonna explode. Sometimes I emo-text the two of my closest friends but idk. It just seems like they either don't care or whatever they tell me dont really make any difference. Like they will tell me to try to do something but it doesn't work and I just continue to feel super emo. It just sucks. So now I feel damn trapped. Like you know when you are in a lift that is super full? Yeah. Trapped.
MOVING ON... friends
Im not the kind of person that is liked by everyone, in good r/s with everyone blablabla. I know about my attitude problem. But just because my primary school friends really don't care, I thought it would be the same in secondary school but damn was I wrong. In secondary school, people are scary. They act as though they are super friendly to you. Deep down inside, they can be hating you. So much. You wouldn't even expect it. And that's where all the bitching comes in. Ok whatever. So (i think) im aware of most people that hate me, those who make a joke out of me. It's really upsetting but what's the point. It's not like those people give a damn right. Now, let me bring in the the other group of people. They are called 'friends' #truefriends la sial. Lol. Okay so naming a few, Nicole, Britney & Vivian. Vivian maybe not that much. She is pretty much in her own world. Cuz #cavewoman but I rant mostly to Nicole and Britney. I mean like who else? The one whom is my '8th year friend' aka bestest bestest best friend, the one I spend countless hours with and the other, my closest classmate and cca mate who was the first to know that little 'secret' haha, staying in class together to chiong homework and all. They are the ones who listen to me. Without them I would be talking to the wall, the air and the floor. So I really appreciate it to have these friends and I do hope that they will never have enough of me, so I can rant to them forever. I know it's annoying when I rant non-stop like how long this blogpost is getting but you're my friend right haha:3
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| Much loves♡ |
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| Almost a full 8years alr.♡ |
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| It was our Audition day haha♡ |
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| Throwback to when it seemed like her phone is too heavy for a monopod. |
Typing all these out really makes me feel better. Whether it is read doesnt really matter haha. It's like another ranting session with my friends although I think they're asleep. It's past 3am now so I should get some sleep already. Hope that I will wake up to a better day. Need to start on my homework already hahaha.
Bye♡
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